falling falling falling

but never touching the ground

falling falling falling

i’ll always be airbound

I don’t know if I have ever been so busy in my life.

It is a strange kind of busy.

Living in the present moment exists, but only for particular moments.

Like when you hit the “send” button on paper you have spent three weeks agonizing over, and knowing that that shit was sooooo gooood.

Those are the moments I live for now.

I have been struggling to figure out how it all will work out or how it will all fit in, but once again when my worries subside, I am left knowing truly that

I am exactly where I need to be,

and

so are you, 

and this is all going to work out.

And I am powerful, successful, intelligent, and funny, and

definitely have the ability to excel in the career

that I choose.

And I think that is the turning point.

I realized that I did at some point choose this. And there have been tears, and nights I have tossed and turned dreaming of sandy beaches and perfect waves, reminding myself of the life that I could also have chosen. 

But I chose this,

Global Environmental Politics

because it is important.

The idea that I, for some reason, thought that I might actually be happy being a yoga teacher on a white sandy beach with wealthy foreigners coming to visit to enjoy a few days or weeks to take care of their body and enjoy their life… that idea was crazy.

Don’t get me wrong, the world definitely needs people who can do that. But that’s just not me.

I am too concerned about the big picture, what everyone else is doing or not doing. And if they are on the beach doing yoga, then they are not my concern, because they are doing exactly what they should be doing. On the other hand the ones I need to concern myself with are the ones who are out destroying pristine forests, and contaminating drinking water, and allowing there to be systems in which the poorest people in the world pay much more for their drinking water than you or I. Those are the things I need to concern myself with at this time.

And lawd help me to figure out this crazy schedule of my mine and make it to a yoga class and take the dog on more than two runs a week… But… this life is all a practice. And I am continually improving and everyday, and things are becoming more and more clear….

the nostalgia from this weather is enough to make anyone feel inspired and in love with this beautiful life

all photos taken the great state of Pennsyltucky